Tired of money, tired in total.

I don't even know were to start.. Lets just start by me saying that i am tired!
 Tired of not having money. Tired of being a teenager. Tired of being tired. And it keeps going on and on and on... 
Lets just start with the problem of money. Money is the biggest most annoying problem, i have. I hate money, but i need it. Need it for; Cloths, transport, for party's, food and so on. I do have a job, and i am very lucky to have on, but these 2 months has been, a total lost of money - since i, had to take some days of, for my exams and so on (I work everyday, a part from Saturday and Sunday).  So not a lot of money has been, coming through, for some time know. In my case i am very lucky, in some way - i have a mum and a step-dad that sometimes helps me in times of "money-crises". But they cant afford it. And i understand that - i really do. They have bills to pay, food to cover and just the responsibility to make sure that we have a roof over our head. So that's kind of why,  i HATE asking for money from them or even just help in total.  
I just need money, so badly. That is kind of, the point of my little blog post - and that i don't know were to get it. I have some money, but not enough to get things that i desperately need (Like; Jeans, tops and shoes). I hate asking for help, and i never actually do. I like doing things, by myself. That's why i take care of myself. Before you start thinking "Well, then just asked your mum for some money", you should know that i already have and she said - no. And i know why, and that is just fine - i understand. 
But i will figure it out + money is not everything, i do know that. 
Next problem: Being a teenager.
I hate being a teenager. You have hormones raising through your body, with a 100 miles in hour - and its SO frustrating. One week you will like all sort of food, the next you get nausea by just looking at it and there for you eat something more disgusting... Your feelings are never the same. You get mad, sometimes for no reason at all, and maybe you will just start to cry because you cant find your cell phone or even just the tea + you are tired all the time, with school, work and it doesn't mater how much you sleep. You will just still be tired.  I know its normal, but it drives me mad!!!!!! 


There is one last thing, that i think you should know.. I am not, some angry- annoyed teenager that only thinks about money. I never actually share these sort of thoughts with anyone, that is not close in some way with me. I hate complaining. I know that i do it, but when i do i really actually cant stand to listen to my self. Do you see what i mean? I don't mind when people complain to me, about what ever they are in that situation complaining about - but sometimes i just wish that could hear themselves.   
Hear how stupid and pathetic they sound. I am no better my self in some cases, i know! So i am not trying to play miss. perfect here - but still.  
I don't even know, really what i am trying to say..  I just what to maybe show you, another side to me. 


Sorry for the long, complaining blog-post - but i really needed to get out with it. 
//Victoria Weaver. 




P.s later i will show you, some photos of the week ;-)